A Year in Relfection - To Find Oneself

Wow, this has been quite the experience...

I have found myself throughout the year trying to summarize my experience to people who may have or may have not been reading my blog and I have been telling them all sorts of things.

China is wonderful -
It has beautiful mountains, wonderful people, interesting food!

China is OK -
It has decent museums, people who always want to practice English with foreigners, and the food sometime seems repetitive.

China is terrible -
Some streets have smoldering garbage piles on their sidewalks, businessmen offer you morally gray job 'opportunities', and the food can make you sick.

I have even told some people 'I have found myself'... uh oh. Even I roll my eyes at that one.

But really, how does one not find themselves when they are traveling or teaching abroad - and what does it mean?

In the context I used it - late one night, chatting with a friend on gchat - I said that I found myself and it was nothing new. It was a refreshing change of something internal to something that was always there. Something supremely mundane. *sigh*

I believe the way it is commonly used, usually by travelers, involves a recognition of ones self that was concealed before an event, such as traveling to a different place.

At this moment I would like to reinterpret the word and say that I have found myself...in a different way.

I have found myself on this trip. But this statement is incomplete to what I truly mean to say.
I have found myself eating dumplings.
I have found myself surrounded by friends.
I have found myself ...ecstatic/confused/lost/full/wealthy/embarrassed/prideful/... on this trip.
I have found myself experiencing China.

I could have 'found myself' any where, and it would have been different (and yet similar). I can eat dumplings in New York, as I have with my brother in the past. I could have been surrounded by friends as I was in college. I could have been ...ecstatic / confused / lost / full / wealthy / embarrassed / prideful / ... as I have in various other times and places where I have found myself.

In this sense, I believe that 'finding myself in China' means I have found myself with a whole wealth of experiences I wouldn't have experienced, had anything been different.

Rain and breif summary

We headed down to the big market in UB to catch a bus/van to the countryside. All our information about catching a bus/van came from Eric's memory - sometimes outdated - and friends of Eric who didn't travel through Mongolian 'public transportation'.

We made it down to the market in the early morning after visiting the Chinese Embassy and sat in a van for 6 hours before we actually departed on the 26 hour ride out to a small town we couldn't find on the map... not where we wanted to end up. We got nervous and climbed out of the van and began walking. We left town following a river towards a lake and crossed a volcano. We camped a night, Eric got sick, and moved into a Ger on the lake shore.

We stayed a few days, fishing, swimming, and enjoying the beautiful lake (insert pictures here).

We hiked back to town, ran into the driver who took us out from UB, got ripped off by him again heading back east to Teserleg.

We spent the night, woke up, hiked to a monetary and caught a bus to the former, and potentially future, capitol of Mongolia -- Hahorken.

We arrived and visited a giant monastery before heading out to a giant valley filled with horses, goats, sheep, and yaks. We pitched our tent and read as animals milled about --- It was pretty surreal.
Storm clouds rolled in and Eric and I fled the valley to find a guest house, and ended up lost in the middle of a field as the rain began to fall. We ran into some Mongolians on the riverside who, when we asked for directions to the guesthouse, ended up being the owners. The offered to give us a ride and drove us to the complete opposite side of town (the map was completely off). We spent two nights in the guest house and today we headed back to UB

China's Embassy in Mongolia

Most frustrating experience of the trip.

Below is an account of my experiences with the Chinese Embassy in UB Mongolia. It may come off as a rant, but anyone who goes to Mongolia and has to work with this Embassy ought to be warned. Before heading over to get my visa I was somewhat worried about dealing with them as I read a user's post on Travel China Guide:

Stay away from this Embassy for getting Chinese visa if possible. People who work there are very unfriendly and non-cooperative.

I consider myself relatively patient and didn't think there would be much of a problem... maybe this was just a bad experience. Anyways...

We went to the Chinese Embassy in UB, Mongolia 3 times in 3 days. They are open every other day (Mon, Wed, Friday) from 9 - 12 am. There is one person who collects forms, and one person who gives the passports back with Chinese visas. Our first time in the office we stood in line for 20 minutes before seeing a post on the wall saying that in order to get a tourist visa for China you need three things (make sure you have them):
1) Ticket showing your departure
2) Place where you intend to stay while there
3) Proof of financial stability

We left the office and went to a nearby Internet cafe and printed off the first two, not bothering to consider the third one because no one could tell us what it was.

We returned to the office at 10:30, stood in line for half an hour. A few people furiously stomped away as the officials told them that they had 'insufficient information'. The person in front of me was turned down for 'insufficient information' and the employee behind the counter disappeared - not saying anything - for half and hour. As time drew closer to closing we became anxious. Eventually the official came back and we were helped being told we also needed to show our ticket into China. They would not accept "we're taking a jeep" which is how we crossed into Mongolia.

We left the embassy, having to spend two more days in UB rather than being able to head out to the countryside. We had to buy an expensive ticket through a travel agency which showed exactly how we would cross the boarder.

We returned to the embassy on Friday at opening with all the information hoping that we would be able to sort everything out at least by noon. While waiting in line the guy collecting forms left again unexpectedly, thankfully returning after only 10 minutes. We laboriously talked him into accepting our forms finally it sounds like things will work out... We go to pick it up this Friday.

Getting ready to head north!

Yesterday Eric and I spent the morning hiking up into the mountain range that surrounds UB. On the top of the mountains there were countless Ovoos (piles of rocks, tree trunks, and prayer flags). As Eric explained the tradition - walk around the Ovoo three times and throw a stone on it - a bunch of Mongolians joined us and began to circle the Ovoo. When they finished they all began yelling towards the city below.

We hiked down the mountain leaving our Mongolian friends behind only to hear their shouts following us even as we reached the foot of the mountain.

Tired, we climbed aboard a bus and road it to the other end of town where we ate a late lunch and realized we were both getting sun burnt. Anxious to evade the sun we got a 2 dollar hair cut, and watched the new Terminator movie (the day previous we were talking about how disinterested we were to waste our time in a foreign country indoors... ha!)

Now that we've spent the past few days hanging out in the capitol, and are just now getting ready to head north to Moron, and a lake 200km north of it. We plan on camping, fishing, and trekking around.

Mongolia!

Eric and I made it safely to UB, Mongolia!
After arriving in a Chinese boarder town and unwillingly hiring a Chinese driver we attempted to buy some cheap motorcycles. We were, however, eventually discouraged -- the bikes were expensive and there was a huge fee to transport them across the boarder from China to Mongolia.

We ended up climbing onto a jeep with a bunch of Mongolian nationals and crossing the boarder just barely catching a train to Ulaanbaatar. The morning after we awoke to watch the sunrise and pull into the now bustling capitol of Mongolia (according to Eric the city has grown exponentially since he was last here 5 years ago). We will stay here for 3 or four more days before heading to the countryside.

Cheers!
Jon and Eric

No more freedom

I am going back to China today and I will not have access to the Internet.

Rough plans for the future:
In a few hours I will fly back to Macau with some friends I have been in Thailand with.
We will cross the border into Zhuhai where I will wait 2-3 days to board a train to Beijing to meet my brother Eric.
We will meet in Beijing and either loiter there for a bit or just head north to Mongolia.
Eventually in mid-July we will head back to Minnesota.

I will throw some updates up as the Chinese government (or eventually the Mongolian government) permits.

The Beach, Snorkling, and Sunburn

We woke up at 7 this morning and climbed on a long boat and cruised to a nearby island where 'the beach' with Leonardo DiCaprio was filmed. I've never seen the movie, but ever since I set foot in Bangkok I have heard about it -- Every backpacker and tourist wanted to go there. Upon arrival at the secluded beach we lept off the boat and swam to a ladder which led us to an isolated campground looking area and further in was a giant beach (In the middle of the bay about 20 feet out was a beautiful 30 foot sail boat tilted at 45 degree angle - we concluded that the crew must have anchored and it slipped -- an expensive mistake).

After 10 minutes, 7 seven or so giant boats pulled up and unloaded a few hundred people on the beach... My small group of friends, 6 of us felt out numbered and lost the joy of being there. We returned to the long boat, to find 2 giant cruise ships and 6 other long boats anchored. We snorkeled (!!!) for an hour or so, and drove back to 'monkey island'. It reminded me of the parks in China where the monkeys would lurk the path and attack tourists.

Side note:
We have been touring Ko Phi Phi with a Canadian couple. Before joining us they rode elephants in southern Thailand where the guy contracted some sort of rash on his inner leg which pussed at night. The first day in Ko Phi Phi, his girlfriend sliced her foot open on a seashell requiring several butterfly stitches. Today the guy got sun burned and the girl was bit by a monkey on this monkey island.

This was their first trip together and they claimed that they were doing us a favor learning everything the hard way. They were real troopers.

Ko Phi Phi!

Yesterday morning at 4 am we woke up and went to the Bangkok airport and caught a plane to Phuket, and island in south western Thailand. We landed and took a taxi to the docks where we missed the ferry to Ko Phi Phi by 30 minutes and had to wait 5 hours for the next one. We ended up on the island at 3:30 with some new friends and began to look for a place to stay. We went to bed at 8:30 last night we were so exhausted.

The island is beautiful and I will be sure to insert some photos when I have more time on my hands.

Today we will hike around, swim a bit, enjoy the beach, and possibly swim with sharks.

Too much to write about!

Today I had some free time to explore on my own. I ended up exploring a firehouse and crawling into an attic, and meeting a few Thai people. They are extremely helpful. They will tell you where to go to get the closest razor, and what time a given museum closes. They will also cheat you, if you aren't savvy enough (we ended up getting dragged around the city the first day here).

I noticed that taxis around big hotels start at a few hundred baht, while taxis else where are in the ten digits. Even Tug-Tugs will look you up and down before offering a price. Usually in the morning/afternoon, if you are in a non-hotel area you can catch a tug-tug for 20/15baht per hour. After going to your first destination (if not before) they will take you to 'their sponsors' where they will expect you to buy a suit, tie, dress shirt, ring, or other piece of jewelry. If you are lucky, they will take you to a TAT (Tourism Authority of Thailand) shop where they will help you plan your trip and offer you free water. Towards the end of our time messing around with Tug-Tugs we would relax and throw out extravagant hypothetical situations while sipping on free water provided by the agents.

Tug-Tugs are a thing of the past, now that we are on day 3. We would just as soon walk 10 blocks before snatching up a Tug-Tug and driving in circles until they decide which sponsor to bring us to.

Anyways, the people here are kind, if you know the way the game is rigged. They will give you directions to the most isolated places with hopes that on the off chance you will chose them in your next journey.

A Brief Update and intro to Thailand

There is a 65% chance that I will be staying in China at United International College again next year helping the International Development Office or the Office of Whole Person Education (the on campus volunteer organization).

It is my hope that another year in China will allow me to increase my Chinese language proficiency as well as allow me to return to the US and land a job with an international company/travel abroad agency/study abroad agency (in reverse order).

I have become a Foreign Agent Specialist for an international modeling company in the Pearl River Delta. After working on for the Medical Device Sales Company I expressed my uneasiness to the manager and he suggested that I help him recruit western models to star in movies and various advertisements. I have since been in one movie as a wealthy westerner on a cruise ship, and a line of advertisements as a cook (with the white mushroom hat) recommending an expensive line of toaster ovens and steamer appliances. The pay isn't great, but it's fun to hang out on a movie set with a bunch of friends and watch a famous 12-year-old actor fake-play the piano while his mother (a famous Taiwanese superstar) watches sobbing.

Just today I flew out of Macau with Carl, Joel, and David (3 other T.A.s) to Thailand. We flew out in the afternoon and met a middle aged ex-pat who informed us of the seedy underbelly of Thailand -- unmentionables. He continued on to tell us that it was very common for middle aged men to visit Thailand on a business trip for a week or so, return home to their wives -- only to sell their assets and return to Thailand to start a new life. In fact, he admitted, he was one of these people, he even had a Thai wife. But, he justified the sudden switch to the fact that his wife was actually scheming to divorce him.

Anyways, the plane reinforced certain stereotypes we have already heard about from other travellers but only brought them down harder upon us. Even now sitting in the hostel I shudder thinking about the advice this man shared with us - he not only validated the darker reality but passed it off as casual advice from one traveller to another.

---Lost and Found---
Not letting it get to us, we evaded his company and claimed our bags and was falsely counciled by airport 'government staff' into taking a taxi for much more than the airport shuttle bus. The driver was a funny guy whole helped show us different temple guides and told us about upcoming Mui Thai boxing matches.
Due to our lack of cash we had to take a pit stop at an ATM to pull out more money - getting out of the car Joel unknowingly dropped his Ipod touch into the gutter. We climbed back into the taxi and found our hostel where Joel realized he had lost his iPod. Not letting it get to him, we went out and ate some pad Thai (amazing) and walked around the neighborhood. We actually found our way back to the bank where we pulled the money out of the ATM and Joel inspected the gutter to find his iPod face down in a puddle.
Excited at the find we went and ate some delicious homemade Coconut Ice cream at a nearby restaurant and shuffled home.

Whoa!

C'mon.
Really? Not posts for a few weeks?
I was just getting into posting rapid fire too, then -- poof -- nothing.

Well I am here to tell you all that I am OK! I did not fall off the Great Wall, or killed and sold for parts.

I AM BACK, for awhile at least. Ha ha - I am in Thailand and the Chinese government cannot block my blog access here.

So what happened was the Chinese government blocked all blogging sites for the past few weeks because it was close to a historical event that happened on June 4th in Tienanmen Square. I have heard murmurs that they were expecting a blog lash back.

I have tried to use proxies and sites to get around the blockage, just so I could let you all know whats going on but the page would always time out and the posts would never auto-save or post.

Here is my apology for my tardiness as well as my appreciation for your interest. I have even received a few e-mails asking when I would send an update... here it is.

5-12 Candle Light



Students gather in the center of the school in memory of the victims.

On May 12th we met on campus for a candle-lit vigil in honor of those who lost friends, relatives, and homes in the Sichuan earthquake.  While the ceremony was almost entirely in Chinese, it felt good to take part.  The night started off with a few songs, a few speeches, and a video of a group of UIC students who went to help shortly after the earthquake.  They then showed a video of Children who were happily going to school in a large trailer provided by the Chinese government (illustrating the resiliency of the region), sang a few more songs followed by a few speeches by students who are from the Sichuan province.  A woman, who I was told wasn't from Sichuan (nor was the dance) danced on stage for two songs and then a large group of students came to the stage and passed around a microphone as they sang a song (which eventually included nearly everyone as they held tea candles and reflected on the event.  


We concluded the night by signing a giant poster and heading home.  I know that the event and seeing the support of so many students was especially touching for those from the Sichuan region.  My friend Teddy - who I stayed with in Sichuan and took me to the earthquake area - had the opportunity to say a few words.



Teddy speaking to his classmates.


The song we all sang midway through the ceremony.

If you are reading this please take a moment to pause and reflect on the impact of the earthquake which killed more than 70,000 people who were in schools, factories, and hospitals...
People lost their family members.  Their friends.  Their homes.  Their ways of life.  

The Mysterious Island

---Rides!---
Me and some TESL friends (workmates) went out to Mystery Island and had at an actual Chinese Theme park! There's a theme park nearby the campus where we teach... Pearl Land... but it's small and doesn't look very exciting. This one, had tons of rides and all sorts of things you might want to find in a theme park.


Me, Dave (great boss), Ryan (great friend)(respectfully)


This is the group we ran around the park with.



At one point the machines were inspected (good enough for me).


This one wasn't fun.


This one looked lame.

---FREE DINNER?!?---
After we ran around Mystery Island all day we headed back to the coast of Zhuhai where an Italian Restaurant, Peccati di Gola, which was celebrating it's 1 year anniversary (which meant free food). Trust me when I say this is the best western restaurant in Zhuhai. We ate our hearts out and enjoyed the fresh air!


Nancy, a UIC student who visited Gustavus last summer!


Alex was a daredevil when it came to rides...but he had a tendency to keep his eyes shut.


Great food!

Shopping, Cooking, and ***Recipes***

---Odds and Ends from Friday---
After a few months in this bustling town, one might think that exploring would lose its excitement, or time might be filling up with too much hard work. -- But this is not the case, we always find time to...


...find find crazy looking bugs and run to find a camera.



...hang out in front of crowded Chinese supermarkets


...take pictures of piles of shrimp,


surprised sales-women and their piles of starfish,


and even surprised sales-women and their piles of chicken feet.


These ducks don't need much space.

---Cooking---
Wow! We took these ingredients:

Chopped them up and stir fried them:



And made a few delicious dishes. I will post the recipe below when I have time... I might try it again sometime soon and upload a picture of the end result. It's supposed to be a set of family secrets... so I am ever so thankful Mimiko shared these recipes with me. = )

----Recipe - Chinese Eggplant-----

1 Long Chinese eggplant
2 decks of cards worth of thin sliced meat (not much fat) - pork or beef.
3 Cloves of Garlic
2 Tablespoons of Ginger
Oil & Soy Sauce
*optional Soy Bean Paste (I am told it brings out different flavor)

Half the eggplant and slice up the eggplant into fatty chunks (about a half inch thick). Throw some oil in the Wok and fry up the eggplant. Eggplant sucks up the oil and can end up tasting like cigarette butts soaked in oil, but the secret is to smash the oil out of each slice with a spatula as it's frying. Give it a few minutes and then throw them into a dish to relax for a minute.

Back in the wok, throw on some more oil, toss in the garlic and throw in the meat. Once the meat is cooked -- toss back in the eggplant, ginger, and 3 tablespoons of soy sauce (as well as the soy bean paste). Bang, you gotta dish.

***General Notes on Cooking***
The Ginger and Garlic amounts are estimated an can change up based on your taste. I have read a Chinese cookbook over here and both Ginger and Garlic are the backbone of most Chinese Dishes. They are extremely good for you and have a bunch of properties which are beneficial to ones health. (I bet this is a no duh moment for a lot of you, but I found it interesting.)

Using soybean paste and soy sauce made things a little too salty for me... Because I have the paste, I think I will tone down the soy sauce next time.

----Fried Eggs & Tomatoes----
I will add this later, I am going to run and then swim for a bit

Summer and Weekend Plans



I have recently heard news from the West...my brothers might be coming out to visit me. This will mean I will have to extend my VISA and hang about a bit until they get here. I am very excited to see them and have the opportunity to travel around with them.

Tomorrow I will be going to a Chinese BBQ and afterward learning to cook Chinese food from a friend in my kitchen, I'll write down the recipes. This weekend I will be going to Maccau to get some books and explore the area a bit more.

A Sheep in Wolves Clothing

"Fake it until you make it"


The secret to becoming a hero, if you're a coward, is to fake it.  If you never fake an attribute you don't have... you'll never get it.  This goes for belief, hope, and at sometimes love.  

There was a great blogger once, who said that the hardest leap is from zero to one, and one to zero.  In other words it is hard to try something new, and it is  hard to give up something you do as a habit.  We know this is somewhat relative, as it's not nearly as hard for most of us to try a new type of ice cream or dog food to feed our pooch... but when it comes to things like sky diving, matters get a little more intense.  This includes things like becoming a vegetarian -- caring about things you once didn't care about, or making a silent care manifest itself in your actions.  You become a hypocrite, if only for awhile...

What I am curious about is doing things your 'heart isn't into it', but doing them  for other reasons, personally perceived more important reasons.  Accepting a job at a Starbucks even though you oppose the cooperation because you desperately need the money - eating meat even though you detest the process which places it on your plate because you are visiting a Chinese family who spent the last day preparing a meal for you -  the list could honestly go on forever.  Is it wrong to do things, which makes it appear like you endorse them, even though you detest them?  I am not talking terrible things, I am talking about the grey areas which lie somewhere in between right and wrong.... even the things which lie within the greater domain of 'rightness' but you have openly stood against.  

What if it is in attempt to better yourself... for example the bad person who fakes a good quality in order to correct his negative actions in order to straighten out his path even though he looks like a fool to those with whom he used to relish in trouble with.  

Is hypocrisy something that ought to terrify us to the point of inactivity?  Should we be afraid to change for the better because of the trouble we see the effects other people face as they try to do better?  A democrat turned republican, a republican turned democrat?  Those who are religious, I am interested to hear what you think about the grey areas, that which your religion may not necessarily speak about.    

I have heard a great Baha'ian say that every action ought to be followed by reflection which should shape our next action.  I agree.  But what if our actions consistently appear to be changing upon further reflection?  Once we make a mistake and fix it are we no longer accountable for the initial mess up?

New Format


As the end of the year draws even closer I have decided that the blog could use a bit of a facelift.  I have changed the colors, added a counter at the bottom of the page, and I am thinking about throwing together a quick logo or something.  


Some recent posts can be checked over on the side >>>>>

I promise to update the blog more frequently as the end of the year draws near.  Recently every day has been jam packed with experiences and I've been dragging my new camera (thanks mom and dad!) around with me everywhere.  


The Guangzhou Haircut Dance


If more places did things like this to lure in customers, the world would certainly be a different place.

It is not uncommon for shops to have sales people stand outside of the shop with signs or hand out fliers.  Many shops have 2-5 people who stand near the entrance just clapping.  This shop took the hype level up a notch.  Sidewalk dancing!

Guangzhou - The town that keeps on going


Nice load!



NICE HAT!

On Friday we arrived in GuangZhou and met with Rain, our friend who would show as around her hometown. We dropped our things off and went shopping. We shopped all day... I can't say I have ever shopped for so long. I bought a really nice silk sleeping bag liner for $20 and a hat for $6. We explored a road called Beijing road which was lined with shopping malls and other shops. After eating dinner with Rain's family we retired for the evening.

The next day we piled into the car with Rain's parents and drove to Bai You Mountain, the tallest mountain in GuangZhou. We spent the afternoon following an endless mass of people marching up a paved path to the summit. We took a brief moment to play Frisbee with some random people and then continued up. Half way up the mountain was a stone path with stones that stood upright...


Rain - "If you take your shoes off and walk on this path, you will sleep well tonight."

Joel and I took off our shoes and staggered along the extremely long path. When we finally reached the end we could feel our feet rejoicing for the reprieve. After descending the mountain we climbed back into the car and went out to Rain's house in the rural area of GuangZhou.



A bike made for 3

A bike made for 2

Rural GuangZhou

This city is huge. We drove for a long time - at least and hour - and finally got to the countryside, which was still 'GuangZhou'. We got a tour of Rain's parent's rural 4 story house, walked around the neighborhood, and enjoyed the scenery. After stopping for a dinner on the way home, we returned to Rain's parent's house in the heart of GuangZhou and called it a night.

The next day we went to a Buddhist temple - Guangxiao - and did our usually wandering around. 


Now I can throw away the ticket.  = )

Little Buddha Tea Time

A Glimpse of the Divine

We ate lunch at a nearby restaurant which was a Tibetan vegetarian place which served all sorts of types of mock meat. We tried the chicken and shrimp. The pure veggie dishes we ordered were awful, but the mock shrimp and chicken dishes were spectacular.

Mock Chicken


We took the subway to a giant family museum which had a huge art collection and beautiful roof ornaments. We wandered through the buildings and went to 'the most famous market in China'.


The Fang Cun market in GuangZhou is marked as the most famous market in China because you can buy all sorts of live animals to eat from bats and owls to dogs and cats. Ever so challengingly the guidebook suggested that tourists probably shouldn't go and visit.


Dried Lizard Medicine



"These silk worms make a good soup." Rain

The market was mostly tea and dried spices and herbs -- but there was a block where you could buy dogs, turtles and pets. But we are pretty sure they were just pets. There were all sorts of expensive imported western bred dogs, probably not worth making into soup.


We left the market and headed to an area located on an island in the river that runs through GuangZhou where the French and British colonized. We were excited because we had heard there were some good western restaurants in GuangZhou and we figured this is probably where they would be.


We arrived at the island and went to a western sounding place - Lucy's - which had a pretty sizable menu. We ordered a table full for the 3 of us and left disappointed because the food was definitely sub par

We tried to show American to Rain, but it was quite bland.

Leaving the island to go home we crossed a Subway which Joel and I both decided to grab a 6 inch Sub. The pickles were Chinese pickles and didn't sit well with me. We returned to Rain's house and called it a night.


It was a fun weekend, but both Joel and I felt like we didn't really 'see the city'. For all of the hype that GuangZhou has, we definitely didn't see or experience anything outside of what we have come to expect from China.  

Incomes & Outcomes (Cont.)

The sales agent, my boss, and I climbed into another cab and drove to the final hospital. On the way my boss asked me if I was nervous.

Bossman - "Do you think this will be a difficult job?"
"Nah, it doesn't look that difficult."
"Your job really isn't that hard. All you really need to know is Ni Hao. Xie Xie. Bye Bye. It would help to know a few other things but you are being paid to improve the company's image. Many hospitals in China believe that the technology of western products is better than China's. We need you to be there to show the clients that we care about them. Smile a lot. When we go into this next hospital make sure you pay attention to what I do. Next time, I will not be here. It will just be you and the agent."
"I really don't know that much Chinese."
"Don't worry about that. The agent will do all of the talking and negotiating. Just smile and thank them. This time, just watch what I do."

We exited the cab and entered a huge hospital. Earlier in the day, my boss taught me to say, "Director of technology" "Hospital Director" "hospital" and how to formally address my boss in front of other people. As we scanned the hospital directory he pointed out the Chinese Characters and said them out loud. He mumbled "ke dahn" and we set out walking past waiting rooms and laboratories. We stopped outside of a woman's office where we paused before shuffling in. We all shook hands and took seats as my boss introduced himself, handed out a business card, and a catalogue of the company's medical equipment.

The woman behind the desk looked unimpressed.

After 5 minutes we shuffled out of the room and began to walk down the hall. One doorway down stood a man in a laboratory coat who was stirring two beakers of red liquid over hot plates. Initially I thought it was blood.

He looked up at us and my boss approached him handing a business card, catalogue, and introduced us. The man stopped stirring and paged through the catalogue. I glanced back at the door and saw the biohazard sign. --I'm pretty sure we shouldn't be here-- The walls were lined with vials and various chemicals in canisters.

The man put the catalogue down on a steel table and picked up his glass rod to stir the fluid again. He added some red powder and continued to talk with my boss. I smiled as i realized he wasn't stirring blood, just some red powder into water from the sink. The man had inadvertently given me ammunition to do my job, my smile widened.

I stood there with a smile plastered to my face for the next 40 minutes scanning the room for things which could distract me and kill the time. When we finally left, my boss was angry and spent a good ten minutes in the parking lot talking heatedly to someone on the phone.

We said goodbye to the sales agent and boarded a bus.

Bossman - "That last hospital was terrible. She didn't want even want to speak to us. We will discuss business later. Now we party."

We went to a Chinese restaurant and ate some noodles and walked to a grocery store where he bought a Budweiser for himself and I. He toasted a successful day, while muttering about the failure at the final hospital.

Bossman - "We will have business cards for you printed tomorrow. You are now our Senior Director of Sales."

He clasped me on the shoulder as he walked us to the bus which would take us home. It was the most comfortable bus I have taken in China. In between falling asleep, we talked about family, the state of the economy, his parents faith in Buddhism, and his inability to believe in God.

Bossman - "I don't believe in God. I believe in myself."

Although this isn't the first time I have heard such a statement, I think it is the first time I have seen it manifest itself in ones attitude and actions.

Incomes & Outcomes

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History behind the job:
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I wrote a few days ago about being offered a job to sell medical equipment for a large company in China. Not seeing much of a problem I decided to try it out and met up with my potential employer for a training session.
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My boss led me to three different hospitals today. Nothing could be quite so despairing.

I exited the cab to meet my boss who was standing near the bus stop. He ushered me into another cab, where we rode to the first hospital. The first hospital was a veteran's hospital, where we wandered around until we found a beaten up building in the back which looked more like a slum apartment than a manager's office. I followed my boss into a room as he grinned at the coming deal. After 20 minutes of interchange and a few brief looks up at me (from the client) and we left.


Bossman - "Next time wear leather shoes...And tuck your shirt in."


I nodded, and followed him off in my Birkenstock sandals and button-up shirt.


We climbed into another taxi and rode off to a public hospital.


Bossman - "...It's the agent who makes the actual sale who gets 40% of the profit from the equipment. The hospital usually gets about 20% of the profit... not the hospital itself, but the person in charge of buying the equipment who is usually pretty greedy and arrogant. They tend to look after what is best for themselves and not necessarily the hospital. Lastly I get the last 20%. Is that wrong? How does it work in the US?"


I was baffled and didn't really have the capacity to speak for his American competitors but I was pretty sure America wouldn't be the team riding a white horse. So I let him know as such.


After 30 minutes of standing outside the hospital's bosses office, my boss calls his agent in charge of selling to this branch and summons him. Within 15 minutes he shows up and begins to wait with us. We wait in the alley for nearly thirty more minutes before they suggest moving inside the main hospital building where we wait for the next 45 minutes.


Inside the main building we saw burn victims, children, and old people hobbling along to the elevator which, I hoped would take them up to a place where they would find some relief.


Bossman - "In China, you don't want to be a doctor or lawyer... you need to be a businessman. That's how you can make a lot of money, and quick."


My face flushed, "In America, it's somewhat the opposite. You want to be a doctor...or a lawyer."



BM - "Most Chinese people aren't that wealthy so they usually go to public hospitals like this."
"Are these hospitals pretty good?"
"No. They are usually pretty bad."
My heart sank for the remainder of our time together. We sat and watched people walk by seeking sub-par medical assistance from doctors who were accepting a poor salary, so that that their boss could buy overpriced medical equipment getting a kick back that would please them and flow back to my boss, to his sellers, to me.


Bossman - "After my first job as a salesman I figured out that I hated selling things. I hate days like this, when I have to go around and visit hospitals -- visiting customers like this. It helps when you realize it's just a game. As long as you realize that it's not work and it's just a game, it makes things a lot easier. This is just a necessary part of the game, but I would much rather be in my office drinking tea."

Running, Alienation, and Chalk

This blog has become something very special for me, and I will miss blogging when I return to the US.  Not only do I feel special each time I hear about people caring enough to read about my journey, but also it has been a huge cathartic procedure.   In past travels abroad I have found running to be the most cathartic activity.  Whether it be South Africa, Porto Rico, Colorado, France, or Italy --- The moments that most stick out to me is 'getting out' and seeing the city for my self via foot.  But with blogging I have found a new outlet to augment my running.  


Interestingly enough, at least 75% or so of my experiences here in China have instilled an, "Oh crap, I should blog about this."   Sometimes I try to type it out, but it doesn't compare to the experience as it unfolds... and most of the time it doesn't make it to the 'publish this' button.  

My written account will never fit the bill, even when I get older, I am aware that I will read these brief glimpses into the orient and feel that 'warm reminiscent feeling' but it will not compare to that which is taking place out here.  I have slowly felt myself meld to the point in which I no longer can tell the difference between here and there (the US and China).  I cannot necessarily speak the language, I do not necessarily fit in, but this is reality -- this is my reality.

After I graduated, I was one of the only people I knew from my graduating class.  I was facing 'the other side' on my own.  They all had the comfort of another year of classes, and I had somewhat willfully chosen to engage the 'real world'.  I would never take it back, but it was alienating.  I remember my first few weeks spent in Maplewood, Minnesota with my new roommates as I started my job with Americorps.  At the time, nothing could have scared me more.  

I found myself facing numerous situations which have left me in the dark much like my experiences here.  I have begun to feel more comfortable with alienation from my surroundings and I have begun to think that this is one of the first steps to satiability.

"Be in the world, but not of the world"

Carrer Day!


Professors above labor hard as the end of the year draws near.


---My Career---
I was eating lunch with another T.A. last week, when he told me about a great job opportunity working with troubled teens in Duluth.  He said that the pay was great and the teenagers were great kids, they just needed a good role model.  I thought this sounded great so I asked him if he would pass my name along to his old boss and see if I could have arrange a phone interview.  He said it would be no problem, but I really should think about my career.  

Like a plane hit by a missile -- smoke appeared I began a downward spiral.  Career?  Shoot, I am pretty comfortable where I am -- I have never really had my eye on money or power.   After talking to some friends I have found that at my age I don't have to start spinning gold out of hay, and I can still be happy with what I have.   This was a relief.  

---Job Prospects In China---
During the last few months my friends and I have been approached multiple time and asked if we would be interested in appearing movies.  Usually we don't have lines, but we just stand there looking 'western' while we are filmed.  The pay averages 100 USD - 200 USD, the higher end, if you end up saying something.  

There are also opportunities to model clothes.  Only a few T.A.s went out for this, which turned out to be a photoshoot for underwear.  The pay was somewhere around 100 USD.

Two weeks ago a newer T.A. was approached and asked if he would be interested in selling medical equipment for a major company based in our region.  The job would entail travelling around the region and meeting with hospitals.  They wanted a person from the west so that the products would come off in as technologically advanced.  -- My friend invited me to join them at a dinner/interview.  

We entered into the office and the boss told us a little about the company.  After offering us both a pack of extremely expensive cigarettes (the medical field is so funny) he led us into a room with couches and a liqueur cabinet which housed two bottles of what we assumed was  very expensive scotch.  We sat down with a girl named Cat who was an intern for the company, and a woman who was a full time professor at our college.  The full time professor at our college offered us a drink, and in the process of trying to open the bottle, she accidentally shredded the cork, dropping pieces into the bottle.  At this time, the boss had left the four of us to go meet an even higher up boss who was arriving from a large convention.  Unfit for consumption, the woman poured the bottle of scotch down the sink and opened the other.

While this was happening, we asked about what kind of medical equipment would we be selling.  Cat became a bit flustered (she would often become nervous when speaking English to us) and pulled a machine out of a nearby box and set it on the counter.  
"This machine...  uses..."    
She unraveled a sleeve attached to the machine and we understood.  We then proceeded to go around the table checking each other's blood pressure and then went out to dinner where we were able to eat the fanciest seafood I have ever eaten.  My friend, at this point, knew he could not accept the job because he was busy Monday - Friday.  I, on the other hand, had some free time and let the boss know I was interested in helping out if he wanted.    

Worse case scenario, I can stick around and sell medical equipment to hospitals.

---Weekend Plans---
This weekend I will be heading out with a fellow T.A. to GuangZhou to stay with a student and explore the city.  GuangZhou is the largest city in the GuangDong province (the province of China where I live) and the 4th largest (population wise) city in China.  

We plan on visiting a temple and possibly visiting a 'rural area' where we can go hiking.  I am not sure what it means to visit a 'rural area' in a city filled with more than 13 million people, but I can honestly say my expectations are very low.


Kids these days


A few weeks ago, I was offered the opportunity to spend an hour a day with a little boy named Stephen.  Since then, my roomate and I have taken turns watching him, from Monday through Friday.  Stephen is a 3-year-old who speaks very little english...or so I thought.  For the first two weeks we didn't accomplish much.  I would lead him to a large area in front of the nearby library where he would ignore me and talk to other Chinese parents -- explaining what he was doing with a foreigner while I would smile and nod.  Since then I have found that he knows a few basics and he is becoming more comfortable trying to speak english.  


Here is Stephen with another friend of his.  I don't know her name, but I see her often.


Stephen making faces while the girl hides behind him.


The mother of the little girl thought it would be cute (before I took out the camera) to put the little girl on Stephen's back as he biked around...  It may sound dangerous, and it is, but it is not uncommon to see three kids somehow riding on a single bike. 


Qiao

This last weekend I took a short trip out to Qiao island with some friends. We walked across the bridge which joins the island to Zhuhai and spent a beautiful day exploring! At one point we ended up in the heart of a Chinese military training facility surrounded by guards who told us to put our cameras away and pointed at the way out. It was pretty nerve racking.

Towards the middle of the we arrived at a giant gate with ollyWood written across the top. Approaching the gate, a guard came out to us and asked us to pay him 10 kuai ($1.25) to enter. We shrugged and payed up - taking a moment to study a nearby map which indicated a beach somewhere up the road. After climbing a hill -- seeing nothing more than a few graves, some flowers, and some 'no burning' signs -- we came to a beautiful view of the ocean, with a giant beach and tons of fishing nets. We decided to climb down and take a peek. After winding down the mountain side we wound up at a beach covered in trash, the majority of which was shoe parts (perhaps there was a nearby shoe factory). After stumbing through the litter we paced along the coast taking pictures of fishermen, mussel encrusted rocks, and a nearby light house.

Anxious to get away from the sad sight we climbed back up the hill and continued up to 'ollyWood'.

The road ended abruptly at a building with a giant female 'buddha-esque' statue posing nearby. Other than the bulding, statue, a bbgun/ballon shooting range, and magnificent view of the island, there was nothing to ollyWood.

We decended the giant hill and climbed on a bus to return home.

Let's talk about people.

I was given a book, igniting the heart at our first meeting.  In it are a series of quotes from various Bahai books and questions that follow from the reading.  


One such quote goes as follows:

"...backbiting quencheth the light of the heart, and extinguisheth the life of the soul." 

This passage gave our group quite a bit to hammer through and ponder.  

One thing about coming to China which has been constantly in my mind is how much backbiting or backstabbing has been going on amongst the TAs.  We came out here as a bunch of strangers and within no time we all were able to get along splendidly.  A few weeks later, someone would do something and everybody would spread the information like wildfire.  It was destructive.  To this day there are relationships in shambles because of what has been said.  

The man who gave me the book suggested that we ought to be careful whenever we talk about other people when they are not present, as it lends itself to backbiting.  The only case in which talking behind someones back is justified is in situations which one is consulting a person of authority on the matter -- to solve the problem.  (He later went on to say that it is also fine to talk about someone behind their back if it was purely factual, to inform someone about something of importance.  I will ignore this for now because harmful backbiting can be factual (My sister weighs so-and-so much).  Likewise some of the most important information ought to be passed on (for example, "Your boss said you should show up for work tomorrow an hour early."))

He used a story about Mohammad to elaborate:

A boy ran up to Mohammad, huffing and puffing.  
"Mohammad, Mohammad!!  You must hear this, I heard something about you."
"I don't need to hear it."  
"What?  You must hear i --."
"Does it involve you?"
"--No."
"Then why are you concerned with it."  

My friend who is also in the class chimed in with the proverb:

Great people talk about ideas.
Average people talk about things.
Small people talk about other people.

From my experiences exploring Buddhism in college I remembered the distaste for words which had grown within me.  The various troubles which arise from language will perhaps always instil skepticism within me, but I know the trouble does not remove the important role of language.  When I heard about this trouble created from the area of 'backbiting' I immediately felt vindicated for my old position, but slowly pulled back.  

Contrary to the proverb above I think there is a similar thought that lies in many people's minds:

Talking about ideas will get you no where.
Talking about things is trivial.
Talking about people is always relivant.

I am coming back to the US in just a few months and I am looking for a job.  Most jobs are not on the internet, but they are attained through your connections.  People you know, who know other people, who need someone to work for them.  So in this case, I want people talking about me behind my back.  

 thoughts?